Thursday, December 31, 2009

You can pick your friends but you can't pick your family (c) Fletch

Sitting at home alone on New Years Eve and this is the first New Years EVER that I am spending alone and not with loved ones... Kinda got me feeling nostalgic so I figured I'd post some funny vids of my crazy fam! Be safe everyone, I love you... and I'll see ya in 2010! As for me, I'll be juuuust fine :) I'm bringing in the New Year with a lil church, Nancy Botwin, Flonominal, Jim Lee, Hank Moody, George Michael Bluth, my Wii, my instruments, my iTunes lib/record player and Jesse Lacey... BE JEALOUS... I'm also looking forward to the midnight calls from the bestie, the lil bro, and my Mommy... even though I'm not physically with my loved ones... I know I'm loved :)

At my moving to the Chi party... This is my Aunt Brigitte trying to learn how to swag surf... My lil bro is the guy in the gray shirt

Aunt B is back with the Stanky Leg... My Mom is embarrassing herself on this one too at the :32 mark lol

My Aunt B finally convinced someone else to dance with her.... She is trying so hard to mimic my lil cousin Briana... CLASSIC. My Mom doing the mono and the 2:30 mark... So embarrassed.

I was always focusing on my Aunt Sherilyn in this vid... I should've been focusing on my Uncle Brian that NEVER dances... He was gettin it! Lol

Wednesday, December 30, 2009


Teddy Riley... and no it isn't because of his ensemble in the pic below, although that alone should warrant him this weeks spot...

Allegedly Teddy Riley gave his daughter a black eye... YESSIR! Word on the street is that she was disrespecting his 22 year old girlfriend (his daughter is 21) now if that was the case.... *tisk, tisk* Mr. Riley... Now us black folks are known for whooping our chilren's but isn't 21 a little old for spankings...? I dunno, I'm just saying... At what point is it just a straight up BUTT KICKIN? Check out what was tweeted about the incident below...

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. (c) Khalil Gibran

A very touching article written by a dear friend of mine that you NEED IN YOUR LIFE! Shout to Mr. Sesay (@thegreatone1) for all you twitter folks… You must follow him! He’s pretty much spectacular

“Damn 7:47! Shit I set my alarm. Ight, no time. Gotta be at work by 8:00 though. Fuck it, I’m already late. How could this happen though? Yesterday I slept for so long. How can my energy be so zapped. I literally slept all day man.....”

“Man, I got a raise. I just got my settlement. But something is missin’ man. I...I don’t feel right... I just don’t....”

“Each day I literally have to time when I’m going to eat that pack of Ramen that I have in the cabinet, because I only have two for the week. I don’t know where my next meal is coming from...”

“Man, I can’t focus. I’m not sad, but I just don’t feel like doing anything today...”

Now trivia time folks, which one of the three do you believe is clinically depressed? *cue jeopardy music* Pencils down, If you answered “number 3, you are dead wrong. The correct answer is all of the above.

When most people think of Clinical Depression, they think toward people who usually can’t handle a rough patch in life. It is an affliction that is believed to be self imposed and merely a figment of the sufferers delusional thoughts combined with an over zealous doctor’s desire to fatten up his bank account through nonsensical prescriptions. In a recent survey 54% of people polled consider depression to be a “personal weakness”. Diagnosis of the disorder in the U.S. has expanded as of recent years along with a massive marketing push from the ever so opportunistic drug companies.
Clinical Depression is seen as a disease that only attacks “the white folk” , who in most African American and African circles, are viewed to not have the ability to handle internal problems and deal with suffering as well as there “darker skinneded” counterparts. It is this dynamic that is illustrated in the virtual void of research data on the relationship of Clinical Depression and African Americans. I perused almost every article possible and all I could drudge up was a book called “Say it Loud: I’m Black and I’m Depressed” by Don Barbera. I’ll spend the 19.95 plus tax at a later date. It’s a recession holmes.
Part of the reason of the void is the lack of available culturally competent researchers who are familiar with the African American community and it’s commonalities and quirks. Another is the African Americans fear of how the research data will be portrayed. As we seen before, (see our whole entire history in life with white folks), mainstream science has gone out of it’s way, at times, to muck up the trust of anything that comes out about Africans and African Americans.
Since I am a miser and there isn’t any real test data or subjects I can interview for this feature, I feel that I have to go to my ace in the hole. Who better to know about the subject than, myself, a sufferer of Clinical Depression.
I was diagnosed with Clinical Depression on July of 2009. I, like many other black men, come from a proud stock. My African heritage added an extra level of spice to that pride stew. There is no such thing as “psychiatrist” in my culture and all problems that are “feeling” oriented is to be handled internally.
Now a little bit of background into my story before I move forward. I lost at least one person every year of my life that was close to me in some capacity starting with my father in 2003 until as recent as this past November with the passing of my older cousin. I’ve had almost every imaginable thing happen to me while I was in school, most too personal to even name in this article. Quite frankly, I am the strongest person that I know besides my mother, who had to watch me suffer through these things and Jesus. But it wasn’t until this year that I really was starting to see the effects. I went to seek psychiatric help when my cousin passed on Christmas in 2006 but that was more for an excuse for my professors just in case my grades dropped. This go round was a little different.
I was unemployed and on the brink of starvation for the majority of 2008. I leaned on my faith and determination to pull myself out of the gutter essentially. I scored a part time job in July then a temp job in September off of grit, shoelaces, a bus pass, and ramen. I rode the bus to and from the job and my apartment and stayed humble until I got hired on full time in May of 2009. I endured another death of a close friend in December but I still trucked on. During that time though, I gained a considerable amount of weight and became increasingly ill. I had no drive to workout and was more of a recluse. It all came to a head in late May after a trip to Atlanta.
In May of 2009 I got a raise and my settlement from a car accident came in (which was a year and a half, two lawyer battle). All of my hard work and dedication was finally paying off. I decided to go to my hometown because I have not been there in a year. When I got Home, something was felt off. Here I was in this plush hotel, with everything ahead of me. I hadn’t been successful that long so it wasn’t stress from that. Something was not right. I felt it in my soul. I go to church. I am a God Fearing man. It was faith that pulled me through all of those trials and in turn made me better for it, but I still was miserable. Also as shown, I am very strong in my resolve. I wasn’t suicidal because I have so much to live for and knew the consequences that would befall the people I left behind, so I knew it wasn’t depression, but things felt so far out of whack . I was just down for know reason. It felt like a lead cape was on my back.It was as if I ran two Marathons and I had nothing left in me to fight for an extra inch, So I decided, when I get back to Ohio, I will seek help. I felt that the shrink would suggest to me some things to snap out of it. I was wrong.
Me and the shrink talked about a lot of things in my 1st visit, but he really didn’t diagnose me with any form of depression. We just talked about life in general. Since this was company endorsed I was cool with it, but I still was exhausted and still was in and out of being sick and I was without a definitive answer. So the next step was to go to the Doctor. It was one of the finer decisions of my life.
I was in the office and we went through a battery of test. I explained to him my problems. After all of the test results showed no adverse results other than high blood pressure, he started asking me personal questions. Nothing too invasive. “How’s your diet, what hobbies do you have”. But it was in my answers that he began to put the pieces together and find the resolution that I needed to move forward out of this fog that I was in.
I told him how I was unable to finish projects anymore because of how tired I would become, and how I once was a workout warrior and how the weight I was at was the most I weighed in my life. I also told him that my appetite really dropped. The doctor paused and just gave me a questionnaire. “Depression Questionnaire”....
“Naw man, not me” I thought.”
“I’m stronger than that. I’m not crazy” , After answering all the questions truthfully and fully, it was in stone: I was a long standing sufferer of Clinical Depression. But how? I wasn’t suicidal, I wasn’t crazy. I have hella friends. This doesn’t match up with the picture I had in my mind.
According to the Doctor, it didn’t have to. Clinical Depression, as explained to me, is chemical imbalance in the brain that involves Seratonin levels in the Brain which rise and fall at points of time where emotionally traumatic events happen to you. So to explain to you in simpler terms, as it relates to myself: With every traumatic event that happened to me I was knocked down a level, and everytime I looked to get out of that level, I just got kicked down again by another event. Problem is I used will power and self dependence to move forward, always trying to place the past harsh event behind me as quickly as possible. I never truly addressed those issues nor address that I was a victim of any of those issues. I never even allowed my self the opportunity to mourn. All of those years of setbacks held into my reservoir of anguish until one day “my emotional dam broke”. The showing wasn’t outward. It just broke my body and mind down. Here is another way that I can relate it to you. It’s as if you are driving a car at night in a snow storm to a location that is just too far, but you have to get there. Your visibility is low, but you have to get there. Roads are slick, you have to get there. That is what my life was for 6 years.
The only problem was that there was the unknown of the treatment. You hear of the rumors of the medicine that is associated with going on the medication that is needed to cure symptoms of this disease. That’s what Clinical Depression is, a Disease of the Brain. After talking with my doctor and consulting a neurologist on how the medicine works and despite my fear of an opiate like effect and addiction I went forward with the treatment.
It was the best decision of my life. The effects are not instant by no stretch. My thoughts became gradually clearer, and my energy levels returned to normal. My ability to interact socially were at normal. The only side effect was initial sleepiness. I still got sad when it was warranted, I was still happy, when was warranted. I cry, I laugh at appropriate times. The key difference was that I wasn’t down for no reason. I wasn’t uselessly wandering, wondering what my next move was going to be. I was back to my old self.
My point behind this is to give a face to Clinical Depression. It is a Disease, that has to be treated much like the Flu. No, you do not have to be suicidal or an outcast to have Clinical Depression, your life does not have to be in shambles, and no, you are not weak. Also it is a colorless, faceless, hopeless, and harsh disease that has to be cut at it’s root. It can zap the potential of some of the best and brightest that our community has to offer. I just hope my story gives courage to another to break the stigma and chains of the disease and move forward in their life. Thanks for your time.

Monday, December 28, 2009

In our family portrait, we look pretty happy... (c) P!nk

Some pics that were snapped at Christmas dinner :)

The new hair cut... If you don't like it... KEEP YOUR THOUGHTS TO YOURSELF... I'm still getting used to it ;-)

Some nalia I stole from my Mommy lol

My lil cuz Bri-Bri... isn't she purrrty?

LaFlore, Siera, Sylvia, and Trenden :)

The crew drankinnnn by the bar lol

"Pretty Boys" love "Pretty Girls" My Aunt Sherilyn (an AKA) my Uncle William (a NUPE)

Siera, my lil bro Kaelan who HATES taking pics, and my lil cousin Briana

Marrissa, Siera, and my Uncle Brian all trying to get Kaelan to take a pic

Trenden LOVES video games...

Fletch stopping to pose during his pool game

Uncle Brian on the table

Darris and Marrissa (the newlyweds), and Siera

My Uncle Milton... loves the fro lol

My Mommy... she's fast, I KNOW

That's my belt! That heff tried to steal it lol

Sunday, December 27, 2009

There are known knowns and there are known unknowns (c) Gin Rummy

What I DO KNOW is that Aaron McGruder posted the statement below on twitter

THREE MONTHS?!?!?! I am wetting myself in anticipation... I CAN'T WAIT! :)

Saturday, December 26, 2009

You're like Jordan's on a Saturday.... (c) C. Breezy

A few of my Christmas gifts... I didn't wanna put them ALL on here... I'm too coy for that ;-)

Blue leather jacket to match my Space Jams :)... I bought this for myself :-p

The 11's courtesy of the boy @sneaks4daze (for all you twitter folks) and the 12's courtesy of the lil bro (@StLMade3)... YUP, I'm loved :)

This is just a shirt some guy gave me when I was at a fashion show because he liked my outfit... I got it over a year ago but for some reason I haven't worn it... I figured it was perfect for my 12s...SHOUT OUT to for hooking me up! :)

Also, shoutout to my BFF (@RichNUPE) for getting me a Wii! My months of complaining finally paid off... I love himmmmmmm :)

*I know I'm spoiled... don't judge me

Friday, December 25, 2009

SONG OF THE WEEK - Merry Christmas All!

I love youuuu... and to prove it I'll leave you with one of my fav Family Guy parodies of one of my favorite holiday songs... Eat lots, be Merry :)

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Because I'm shocked by the power/Shocked by the power of love (c) Kylie Minogue

Pink's husband Carey surprised her on stage... If this isn't the most adorable thing EVAAAAAA! I think they are one of the cutest couple's lol. I'm so glad they're back together :)

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say, and not giving a damn. (c) Gore Vidal

Sex And The City 2 Trailer... You know from my last post on SATC that I'm kind of ready for it to be over... but every time I look at their wardrobe's I fall back in love... *Pops in Season 6 to look at Carrie's infamous polka dot Paris dress... SEX in fabric form.* At this point I'm just watchin for the fashions... EFF the storyline lol

Monday, December 21, 2009

It is our illusions that create the world (c) Didier Cauwelaert

Soooo I love shirts with illusions... I have a surplus of shirts with vests printed on them, etc. Here are a few that I indulged myself with today... DARN THE HOLIDAY SALES!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

On Donner, and Blitzen... (c) Clement Clarke Moore

Lupe... GET EM!

Blitzen is such a gangsta.

KRS-1... LOVES It!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life and that is why I succeed. (c) Michael Jordan


Happy 12s release date! I did not cop these... being in the Chi the lines are ridiculous, and I was NOT in the mood to fight out in the cold... HOWEVER, the lil bro did cop these on my behalf in the StL... I will post pics as soon as they are in my arms when I return back home for the holidays :)

*Only 4 more days until the SPACE JAMS... ARE YOU READY?!?!? What's your favorite J of all time folks? Figured I'd spark some convo... Leave it in the comments section :)

Friday, December 18, 2009


Artist: Jamiroquai and Ronnie Wood
Song Title: Miss You (Rolling Stones Cover)

I LOVE JAMIROQUAI and I LOVE The Rolling Stones... This is a win win! Jay Kay's voice is just so awesome! :)


STL native Bryant Stewart is definitely a talent! I'm not gonna lie I was shocked and pleasantly surprised after listening to this mixtape... I wasn't expecting such a mature sound from someone born in 1990... Lol. Anyway, do yourself a favor and check this out... Without a doubt Mr. Stewart is going places!

Get the Mixtape HERE
Check out his website HERE

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I wanna be Susan Downey (c) Bia

So, today was a RDJ day.... The Iron Man 2 trailer surfaced AND his interview on Inside the Actors Studio came on Bravo... I included both for you to enjoy below

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THIS MOVIE! We all know I'm a Batman STAN but I mean Tony Stark is Marvel's version of Bruce Wayne so I have some love for him... Robert plays him to PERFECTION.

I only included this portion of the interview because I think it was the cutest thing. Me and my friend bia replayed it over and over again.... You can see how much he loves her all over his face, in the tone of his voice... it's just so beautiful. *sappy Mia done*

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

A film is - or should be - more like music than like fiction. It should be a progression of moods and feelings... (c) Stanley Kubrick

...The theme, what's behind the emotion, the meaning, all that comes later.

Here are a few films I'm PUMPED ABOUT!!

The full Alice in Wonderlanddddd trailer was released today! Tim Burton is like chicken soup for the soul... I love that weirdo and his many talents *hops off his testies now*

Christopher Nolan's Inception Movie Poster... Go to 'NUFF SAID.

(Untitled)... A comedy poking fun of the state of contemporary art... Check out the site HERE

Robin Hood with Russell Crowe AND Cate Blanchett? YES PLEASE!

Monday, December 14, 2009

Mid Month Movie Monday!!

This movie is kind of like a thriller/drama/horror... It's a horror movie in the sense that is isn't as SCARY as it is just plain creepy. The movie centers around this odd relationship between a father and his two sons. The father believes that he has been appointed by God to kill demons... Demons being the "bad people of the world." He basically sees himself as a religious vigilante and he has his sons perform these deeds along with him. If I told you any more I would spoil the movie so CHECK IT OUT!!!! I promise you it's AMAZING!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

The reason I get fly as Ibn Jasper (c) Lupe

I am in HEAVEN... Two of my favs will be in Chicago on the 15th and I'll be able to be in attendance. Those that know me know that I do NOT plan outfits in advance but I am already trying to figure out what I will be wearing next Tuesday... If you are NOT familiar with Ibn Jasper check out an amazing interview HERE... He was one of the top barber's in the Chi, the Louie V. Yeezy's are NAMED after him, and his style... IMPECCABLE. But the greatness doesn't stop there... MAESTRO KNOWS will also be in the building... Check out his video blogs HERE... I love his passion, he truly inspires me on so many levels... So needless to say I am PUMPED and am counting down the days...

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

How do you feel? (c) 311

While iTunes' "Genius" function is friggin awesome in that it puts together songs in your own music library depending on genre, tempo, etc... STEREOMOOD.COM is even AWESOMER because it has playlists of songs that you may or may not be familiar with that are categorized by mood. I find this website loads of fun and was shocked that some of the ready-made playlists listed happened to match some that I have made in the past based on what I was feeling... Check it outtttt :)

Friday, November 27, 2009


Check out the Smokey/Annie Lennox performance of the song HERE it's SWEETTTTTT

Artist: Smokey Robinson and the Miracles
Song Title: Tracks of my Tears

Thursday, November 26, 2009


Bia, but you're jewish (c) Me
Oh, yeah... Well, shalom then (c) Bia

HERE IS A PRESENT FOR YOU ALL... I wanted to share the wonderosity that is this mixtape with my readers! I am so grateful for youuuuu. I can't believe you keep up with all the ridiciulousness that I feel is necessary to share with the world. You guys are AMAZING!

I promise this mixtape will not disappoint. Waslau is really goin in on this one... Download it HERE

Happy Thanksgiving to you all! Keep in mind that you don't need to use this day as a crutch! Be sure that you are telling those that are meaningful to you how much they positively impact your life on the regular :)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


Whitney Isleib

The Dallas cheerleader thought it would be a wise idea to dress like Lil Wayne for Halloween... Check out the news coverage HERE, and her before pic below...

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

You were conceived to Sade (c) Kendra's Mom

Here's the cover art for Sade's upcoming album Soldier of Love that the tentative release date of February 8, 2010. I think it's GORGEOUS! I can't wait for this album! :)

Monday, November 23, 2009

Facebook ruins lives (c) MOI.

If you haven't heard... A canadian woman by the name of Nathalie Blanchard is claiming that she lost her health benefits because her insurance company concluded that according to photographs on her facebook page, she was no longer depressed... Who knows how far this argument she is using is going to go... But if this isn't proof that you need to be careful what you post on your facebook page, then I don't know what to tell ya....

Sunday, November 22, 2009

There's someone for everyone... (c) Old adage

...Even if you have the CLAP

So, I totally thought Corey Holcomb was bluffin when he mentioned this website... But check it out for yourself! At you can find people in your area with corresponding ailments...*SMH*

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Was that as good for you as it was for me? (c) Mr. Blonde

For all those Quentin Tarantino fans... Here is a Reservoir Dogs/Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles mash up... ENJOY :)

Friday, November 20, 2009


Artist: The Beatles
Song Title: Blackbird
This song makes me smile...

Even the Across the Universe version is niiiiice... Check it out below

I love this movieeeee! Check it out! It's a musical, and the score is all Beatles songs... Just GREAT! :)

Thursday, November 19, 2009


Me jumpin in the lake back in '04

Bud Light Presents: Real Men of Genius.
Today we salute you, Mr. Mirror Lake Jumper-Inner Ignoring the obvious dangers of hypothermia, you trudge onward and plunge into a 27 degree body of water in the middle of November. Armed only with an abundance of buckeyes around your neck, you are living proof that nothing is unbearable as long as you have a big set of nuts. Splashing around tirelessly, you disregard frigid temperatures and try to warm yourself by incessantly chanting "O-H" and "I-O." Why do you do it they ask? Because no matter how cold it is you're not afraid to show a little school spirit and a pure hatred for those bastards from Michigan. So crack open an ice cold Bud Light oh Legend of the Lake, because when it comes to the Buckeyes, you're simply NUTS.

So, the OSU v. Michigan game is vastly approaching... and today is the day that I would be jumping into mirror lake to assure that the Buckeyes will be victorious! I'm not gonna lie I am kind of sad that this is the first year that I will not be in Ohio/Michigan during the festivities... LOOK AT THE THROW BACK UNIFORMS!!!! I'm sooooo pumped! My Mom is coming to the Chi this weekend so we're gonna hit up the Buckeye Bar on Saturday... can't wait!

Check out the breakdown of the full uniform HERE

And to all you lame M*CH&G@N fans...

Bud Light presents Real Men of Genius. (Reaaaal Men of Genius)
Today we salute you, Mr. Delusional Michigan Fan. (Mr. Delusional Michigan Faaan!)
Season after season, year after year, you try to justify your absurdly high preseason ranking. (Grasping for straaaws!)
Season after season, you scramble with futile attempts at damage control when the Wolverines lose to a grossly less talented opponent. (How’d Northwestern score fifty-fouuurr!)
Inevitably, you’ll bring up the past, and boast of National Championships won 40 years before you were born. (Those were the daaaaays!)
You will point out that you have more wins than any other program as though that were relevant to the current season. (Been playin’ since 1870!)
Go on, ignore that home loss to Ohio State in the season finale, and continue to believe that you’ll defeat your bowl opponent with striking ease. (We’ll win by thirteeeeey!)
So crack open an ice cold Bud Light, oh Emperor of Excuses, and take comfort knowing that when you lose your bowl game and drop from the top 25, you’ll be back to number 3 when the preseason polls come out again next year. (Mr. Delusional Michigan Faaaan!)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


NO WORDS. Just watch...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

So, please, oh please, we beg, we pray, go throw your TV set away, and in its place you can install, a lovely bookcase on the wall. (c) Roald Dahl

This is one of my fav books EVAAAA! The movie came on ABC Family today and I felt obliged to post about it. If you are not familiar with the amazingness that is Roald Dahl, I suggest you step your game up! Start with this story... But don't stop after reading the other childrens books such as Matilda, Willy Wonka, and James and the Giant Peach that have all been made popular by being turned into films... His adult fiction is hot FIYA as well :)

Monday, November 16, 2009

Everyday/Everyday/Oh, everyday... (c) Dave Matthews

Yes, practically EVERYDAY I look for some type of info on the internet that notifies me of when I will be able to purchase the shoes below

Oh the Nike Air Diamond Turf 2... I owned you once upon a time in 5th grade... And I left you on the activity bus and cried for days... Then you came back out in 2004 and I couldn't find my size ANYWHERE! Please come back to me! I long for you... :(


Mia M.

PS If ANYONE has any info on how I can attain these please let me know. I wear a 6 in boys and would love you FOR EVVV ERRRR (c) Sandlot